I could not sleep properly last night I wake up from time to time to see if that text in WhatsApp was sent.

This is not the first time that I can not contact him in fact it been the fourth time
1. at the 2nd week of our phone call I can not contact him for almost 1 day.

2. at the 3rd week of our phone call I can not contact him for 1 day and more hours.

3. at the 4th week of our phone call I can not contact him for almost 3 days after I try not to work on the relationship and make him feels like I don't wanna talk to him.

I have thought it was my fault to communicate a negative feeling to him but the fact is I am so tired of I am the only one who tries to make this relationship work and I want to know if I am not trying what he going to do and the answer is he just disappear for a few days.

I feel the distance and lack of intimacy between us when I can not contact him.

am I so insecure person or am I needy?

The thing is this feeling does not happen to the other people unless he.

or he draws me to this feeling? because he so good at communication maybe he knows how to manipulate me?

every time I can not contact him I always feel so confused about his feeling for me.

It makes me feel like he doesn't care about me.
he told me will call me back but never call back.
he told me he will take a picture for me at his work but he never does that and it seemed that he already forgot what he said.

A lonely wolf who never be in a relationshit.